LOL

My life has totally gone hay-wired lol.

Boy,
You gave me hopes yet trashes them.
No matter how cruel you are treating me now,
I still love you as much.
No matter how much I tell myself,
“Jolene, it’s just a break up! Find a better one, be happy”
It still wouldn’t work!
Yea, I am totally different from you.
It is probably so easy for you to give me up,
It isn’t for me ok?
I still love you, deeply...
I pray to God,
Let this feeling fade soon, it’s suffocating, torturing...
It felt like, I’m dying, bit by bit.
Thanks for breaking my fragile heart, dude. (:

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Oh yea, Here are some people that I wanna thank.

Simin: Sorry to scare you with countless of calls,
And all I did was just cry. Thanks for being there
With me all this while too.

Wanyan: Lol, I seriously, seriously gotta thank you for
A lot of stuffs alright?! You’ve really been there for me,
You told me a lot of stuffs but I just wouldn’t listen.
I would still do it on my way. Bet you would think that
This few days, I’m really crazy and different. But still,
Thanks this few days alright? (:

Renghao: -_- , I got to thank you for giving all sorts
Of cold jokes but still, it made me smile! :D
I know you’re already troubled with your family stuffs,
And still I gotta go and trouble you somemore.
So really thanks!

Jingwen: I know you don’t really know much,
But thanks for talking to me till 3am in the morning,
Hear me kaopeh kaobu, crying and all sorts of nonsense.
You must have been shocked! :D But still thanks.

And yes,
The truth is finally out.
Fuck you, bastard __
You totally deserved it.

happy birthday

Happy Birthday to Fiona!
Hope you've enjoyed yourself today (:

I'm not sure why my mood is like
going up and down! Swinging so badly.
Kia said that I'm very pathetic,
crying everywhere that I go.
Yea, I know and i agree with it.
I'm such a crybaby and even HE feels that way.

Yesterday, when he replied my message
I was feeling so fucking happy!
I was laughing alllll the way~!
But today, I finally have gotten the
courage to sms him again.
I was .....
Don't feel like saying.
He tore my heart apart again.

I love Xiao Qizhi the most!

13th October 2007,
My happy fairytale ended.
But still, I’m not going to let go so easily because I still love you deeply.
Who the fucking hell cares if people are gonna say that I’m thick-skinned?
Spread those things for all you guys want to, I've listened enough lol.
But do I really look like I’m going to give a damn anymore?!
Just don’t get too overboard. Mark my words, mark it well..

Wanyan accompanied me for the whole day.
We headed over to Pasir Ris Park, wanted to cry my entire heart out.
But the atmosphere there was simply too weird for me, so I held back.
We slacked over there, until about 9p.m.
Then took a bus down to Wanyan’s house, Fiona came.
!$!@#@$#@$ I fell down into a deep drain alright!
My legs were already on the verge of breaking due to some
vein thingy blah shit and yet, I gotta fall into this drain.
So my slippers was spoiled but then kindhearted Wanyan decided to lend
me her slippers and walk home barefooted.

Then, I took a bus home at 12am.

Oh yea, Happy birthday Fiona!

Love .. whats that?

I'm back to blog!
During this month, nothing good has happened to me.
There are a lot of arguments between my stead and friends.
Especially between me and her,

Girl, thanks for being there when I’m sad.
You’ve been with me, through all my ups and downs.
And I’m really thankful for that,
But still, some things wouldn’t just work out that way.
I hope you would understand.
I don’t wanna see you in this way,
Cause its too hurting for me to see alright...
Its not only you that is sufferin’!
Deep inside, I’m also feeling the same.
I know that you only wanted me to be happy.
But stuffs that you do, is only going to scare me away.
I hope we would be the same, like last time ..

PS: I’m NOT a lesbian!